How My Life Changed for the Better After Two Battles With Infertility
My heart goes out to anyone who has ever struggled with infertility. I know what it’s like to feel alone and left out when all your friends are getting pregnant and moving on with their lives. I struggled for two years to get pregnant with my son.
I thought I had won the battle with infertility, but when it came time to try for a second child, it hit me even harder. I felt like my friends and family expected more from me because I had been able to conceive once before.
At various points in my life I have been so depressed that I contemplated taking my own life. Thankfully, my husband was very supportive while we were trying to conceive, but he wasn’t the one sitting alone in the fertility clinic or going for day surgery. My entire existence became going for tests and procedures.
That’s when I realized I had a precious son at home who needed me. He needed me to be present and I wasn’t able to do that while going to countless doctor’s appointments. My son was now the most important thing in my life so I made the decision to turn things around and pull myself out of my depression.
It wasn’t easy. I grieved, I read and shared examples of what other women did to heal, and I realized this experience was a gift I was meant to share. My healing from infertility happened in three main stages: grieving, learning how to heal, and becoming a guide to help other women on their healing journeys.
1) The Grieving Process
I grieved for a long time after the news that it was highly unlikely that I would conceive for a second time. To keep going during that time, I started making things. I found joy in creating. I sewed and made flower crowns. I started a business creating things for other people and a Facebook group where I encouraged other women to express their creativity.
Expressing your creativity is a great way to heal. Creative activities are fun, they occupy our minds, and they are wonderous for improving mental health. Writing in my journal was another creative method I used to heal.
The best thing about a journal is nobody sees it except you. I like to use it to get rid of all the negative chatter on my mind. It’s really therapeutic to rip out those negative pages and shred them or burn them. It helps me explore why I think certain thoughts, both good and bad. As I continued to create and journal, I started learning about more things I could do to heal.
2) Learning More Ways to Heal
From the beginning, I knew I wanted to heal from my depression and not just put a bandaid on my symptoms with medication. In addition to expressing my creativity, I found more ways to recover. I learned about crystals, Chakras, Reiki, and BEAM, the Bioenergetic Emotional Access Method. I started receiving treatments in these modalities and began healing from more than my infertility.
To say that these therapies were life changing is an understatement. I went through a huge transformation. Behaviours I had learned from years of emotional abuse started to improve and disappear. I felt better about myself and wanted to learn more, so I took the necessary training in order to offer these services to other women.
I wanted to make a difference in other women’s lives the way my mentors had helped me.
3) Stepping Into My Role as a Spiritual Motherhood Guide
The year my son turned three was unbelievably difficult. On top of my infertility struggles, I was running a childcare business from home while my husband was working a day job and running his own business too. My son was really stepping into his own and testing me on all fronts.
I recognize now my son is a high vibe child. He is sensitive to energies, loves fiercely, and holds a lot of emotions. Because of this, he needs time to process my demands, gives me a run for my money, and makes me repeat things a million times until I feel like I’m losing my mind!
What I learned about crystals, Chakras, Reiki, and BEAM really helps me stay calm and be a better mom to my son. Without those modalities, I don’t know how I would have survived his third year. That was also the year I realized I’m meant to guide other women on their healing journey.
I began using crystals and Reiki with my son and it helped him a lot. More and more, I was hearing stories from women who were struggling with infertility or didn’t know what to do with their children. I felt encouraged to share my story with other women and help them find ways to heal without medication. I had found my calling as a spiritual Motherhood Guide.
If you are struggling with infertility, the motherhood journey, or living with a high vibe child, I want you to know you’re not alone. There are natural ways to help you heal. The first step is to let yourself grieve. You might grieve the loss of the possibility of a child or you might grieve your ideal vision of what you thought it would be like to be a mother. Let yourself experience your grief and then you can begin to heal.
Josie Myers helps moms find a place of peace by teaching them how to truly enjoy their lives through self-care and support without judgement. Too often in life we get bogged down with outside pressures to be the best mom, the best wife, or the best business owner. That’s A LOT of pressure and Josie’s here to tell you, you don’t have to be the best at everything every day.
With a Master’s degree in education and a background in Reiki, Josie is a healer and intuitive guide that helps you tap into your true potential so you can heal from limiting beliefs and energy blocks. She uses Reiki, BEAM (Bioenergetic Emotional Access Method), Chakra healing, oracle decks, crystals, yoga, and essential oils in her practice focusing on what it is she believes will help you the most.
Josie provides support and guidance to help you make the most of your journey while having fun along the way. Whether you’re dealing with infertility, pregnancy, or high-vibe children, she can relate. She’s been through all of this and more and wants you to know you don’t have to do it alone! Josie lives in Ontario, Canada with her husband, her son, and her cat, Russell.
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